Monday, August 31, 2009

Rambling of Faith

Mother Teresa: one of my faith heroes and childhood icons.

Now recognized as a saint, I believe.

When asked once what she thought the first thing she would say to God when she got to Heaven she replied "I think it will be 'You have a lot of explaining to do'"

This quote makes me feel SO much better.

Because there are those times when that's exactly how I feel. That there's just so much I don't understand.

It reminds me that Mother Teresa, while a giant in her faith, struggled just like I do.

I don't know why my friend was just diagnosed with cancer.
I don't know why my friend's father's spinal cord looks like swiss cheese due to a mass eating away part of his vertebrae.
I don't know why so many people are unemployed.
I don't know why...

But I do know WHO.

And that...that makes all the difference.



CptnMayhem said...

I remember reading an article around the time of her death regarding a personal letter/journal entry/something or other that Mother Teresa had written about a month before she died. In it, she expressed doubts regarding the very existence of God.

To some, this may be a shocker. To me, however, it was almost a relief. It was relieving to know that even one of the most devout and faithful servant of Christ of the last 100 years could have doubts.

I think it's something that goes through all of our minds: the doubt, uncertainty, faltering and fear.

Even Christ had his fear and uncertainty: "Father, if you are willing, take this cup from me; yet not my will, but yours be done," (Luke 22:42).

Every now and then I allow my fears and doubts to overtake me, and it is in times like that I must remember these words of Christ and the struggles of Mother Teresa.

Because if they can come through it, I know I have a hope of doing so as well :)

HappyascanB said...

We never really do know, do we? I have never heard that quote, and I love it! Thanks for sharing! I just posted about my weekend at Women of Faith in Atlanta, and Mandisa performed an incredible song about how God is right there with us, in the midst of heartache and pain. We don't understand it, but we must trust Him.

Shanda said...

Amen! We do know WHO and that does make all of the difference.

Stephanie O'Neill said...

It does make all the difference, for sure. This is the second blog I've ready today where the post has truly hit home for has been a rough week here. But, I know WHO is guiding me, loving me, and holding my I will survive. :)