Thursday, July 23, 2009

Why am I Still Surprised?

I am constantly surprised. I'm not sure why, exactly, but I am.

I mean, I'm the one continually telling people
how faithful God is
how real His mercies are
and how I've been so trusting of Him over these last few months.

And then out of the blue He astonishes me with His provision.

I got off the phone around 2 pm today, sad.
I had just been told by a family that had mentioned the possibility of me becoming their nanny that they had decided to keep their 2 year old boy and newborn baby girl in school fulltime.
And while the conversation was good, and I fully support their decision, I was sad.
And worried.
And immediately on the phone and email channels trying to figure out what's next. Because even though nannying wasn't my first choice...
it was nice to have that offer "in my back pocket" in case a teaching position didn't work out.
I was beginning to be resigned to the life of a nanny.
I had begun to stop contacting the schools.
And this just set all that in motion once again.

However, Anne, as we ended our conversation asked me if I would mind being their "on call" person between now and when her parents arrive on the 4th. "Just in case" her water broke or she went into labor in the middle of the night. Just long enough for her husband's parents to drive up from Atlanta to take care of Mr Man (their 2 year old).
I said absolutely.

Not 4 hours later my phone rang.
It was Anne.
Not in labor, but in the hospital because of a car accident. Everything looks fine for her and baby girl, but since she's 2 weeks out from her due date they're monitoring her for 24 hours before allowing her to leave.
Could I stay overnight with Mr. Man so that her husband could stay with her? Of course, they'll pay me my normal rate for this time...

I hung up the phone, and after a prayer offered up for her and Baby Girl, and thanksgiving for their safety, I began to giggle.

Because as I'm worried about how the bills are going to be paid, I get an overnight babysitting job.

My God is a God who provides.

Isn't it when we least expect it...

I realize that it's not an all-powerful, moving mountains kind of story.
No oceans roaring.
No howling winds, no mighty thunderstorms.

But Elijah heard that still small voice
And today...I think I did too.

"I AM a God Who provides"

And suddenly...though I still wonder what's next...I'm not worried anymore.

My GOD is a GOD who Provides!

(a new Hillsong release that speaks to this better than my words can)

Desert Song

Verse 1:

This is my prayer in the desert
And all that's within me feels dry
This is my prayer in the hunger in me
My God is a God who provides

Verse 2:
And this is my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or pain
There is a faith proved
Of more worth than gold
So refine me Lord through the flames

And I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon forged against me shall remain

I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and He is here

Verse 3:
And this is my prayer in the battle
And triumph is still on it's way
I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ
So firm on His promise I'll stand

All of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship

Verse 4:
This is my prayer in the harvest
When favor and providence flow
I know I'm filled to be emptied again
The seed I've received I will sow



Brooke said...

amazing how He's in the little things too

Michelle said...

THAT's beautiful.

I've had 2 such things happen to me this week. And since you shared, maybe you won't mind me sharing. They are small...but they are answered prayer and the GOD OF THE UNIVERSE loves me so much that he answered my prayers. HOW can you not be in awe.

I was praying about my blog, thanking God for blessing it. I began thinking about how fun it would be to do interviews with writers. And wondered how I would EVER be able to contact a writer for an interview. Decided I couldnt.

THE NEXT DAY a publisher contacted me and asked if I would interview his auther; they are sending me her book. It's an author I know and I'm looking forward to reading it.

Then as I continued thinking about that interview segment on my blog I wondered if my blog designer could design a button for me.

Go to her website and BOOM. She's having a fundraiser and selling buttons. IT BLEW me away.

I know, little, but GOD'S answers to my prayers. YEs, Michelle, DO WHAT I want you to do...and here is proof you are heading the right direction. WOW!!!!

MaRiN said...

This was an inspiring post. I sure hope all turns out well for both you and Anne.
God is in control and has a plan for each of us. We just have to be patient and let life run it's course.

thatgirlblogs said...

very inspirational! I'll bet you're a great nanny.

Darcel said...

He's an on time God, yes he.
He may not come when you want him, but he'll be there right on time. He's an on time God, yes he is :)

Thanks for stopping by my blog
Have a great weekend!

Lance and Jewls said...

I love this post! It's amazing to me how just when you think that nothing is going to work out and you hit rock-bottom suddenly you see the light at the end of the tunnel! Thanks for sharing! :)

Stephanie O'Neill said...

Yes -- our God is truly an "on-time" God, isn't he? I've had a bit of an eye-opening week, as well. I LOVE that song you posted -- thanks for sharing!

FROGGITY! said...

thanks for visiting my blog the other day!!

this is a LOVELY post and so true.