Monday, October 25, 2010

Monday's Memory: the one with the pink bracelet

i look at this picture and see details
the pink bracelet on my wrist was worn in support of one of the ladies on our retreat that weekend who was fighting breast cancer
(she passed them out.  and she actually took this picture)
3 years later, she’s cancer free
though her life, i'm certain, is forever changed

i am standing next to one of my best friends
and we’re in front of gorgeous tennessee fall splendor
she’s in another state now
and while we are still close
things are forever changed

and i remember our conversation that day
when i told her that on one hand, i never wanted to date
never wanted to get married
and on the other i was terrified that i wasn’t “good enough” for anyone
and that i would always be alone
(the first being a direct result and coping mechanism of the second, of course)
and 3 years later
i have the most amazing and Godly man in my life
and of course i want to get married, and be with him for the rest of my life
things are forever changed

i could write about a lot of things that have “forever changed” in the last 3 years
or the last 3 months
or the last 3 weeks
or the last 3 days
you get the picture

that’s something we’re all aware of, isn’t it? 
the only thing that’s constant in our world.
(it's cliche...but it's cliche for a reason)

i've learned to embrace it
to enjoy it
to learn and grow through it

one of my favorite pieces of d├ęcor
(which i need to find: note to self)
is a little pillow i hung from the stairs at my condo
and now will hang on the stairs of my “right now” residence

it says “delight in the unexpected”
and i delight to tell you
that i do.

no, it’s not all easy
i mean, come on.
but learning that i'm not in control -- He is
it’s been the most freeing knowledge of my life.


Together We Save said...

It is a hard lesson to learn but I am glad you are getting there.

Zuzana said...

Beautiful and such a touching and candid post. Indeed, we are not in control and life will always play out in the most unexpected way. I certainly have learned that over the years.
Thank you for your kind visit today from WOW and a very kind comment as well.;)

Myrna R. said...

Thanks so much for visiting my blog from WoW.

I really like the way you wrote about change. We may as well embrace impermanence - the only sure thing.

Debbie said...

What a great post! It is truly hard to let go of control but so important for us to keep working toward that.