abundance

tonight as anthony and i left his apartment to go have dinner with some of his family

we saw a squirrel dashing across the yard and into a tree

with a HUGE nut of some sort in it's mouth

after the obligatory "nut" jokes 

(yes, we're 12 years old!)

we remarked that it was actually pretty impressive

that he was able to move so agilely 

with such a huge load

after all, the nut was literally bigger than his mouth

(this wasn't our squirrel.  image courtesy of google images)

it made me wonder

if the squirrel really thought of it as a burden

a load

something that HAD to be done

or if he considered it abundance

something bigger than he could have dreamed of

a solitary piece of food that he can feast on for awhile

hmmm.

i have a lot of things in common with that squirrel.

sometimes i see things as a burden, when they are actually God's abundance

sometimes a load i'm bearing is actually leading me to a blessing that's bigger than i could imagine

something that seems like a chore is preparing me to feast on His richest food

i think that over the last few months

that's become very real to me

losing my house was a release

releasing me into blessings that are immeasureable

i no longer have the worry of how i'm going to pay the mortgage

because there is no mortgage

and some weeks i literally sit back and LAUGH

as God POURS money my way

and i'm ENJOYING my work

i love what i do

i feel like it matters

and i'm so.incredibly.thankful

for the things in my life that most would consider trials

because for me...they've become some of my richest blessings

abundance

i'm SO blessed