Whatever happened, happened.
Ah, Eloise.
the character who seemingly is privy to the most information
utters the most infuriatingly simple phrase
over
and over
"whatever happened, happened."
and that infuriatingly simple phrase
has become a comfort to me somehow over the last few days.
you see, i know Someone who is privy to all the information
more than i will ever know
and i've entrusted my future to Him
and through the chaos that has threatened in the last week and a half
i have remained calm
because
what happened, happened
and i can't do anything to change it
(even if i tried, i might set off another bomb)
all i can do is weigh my options for the future
and trust that One who knows all.
while i'm still not ready to divulge any specific information
please know that i'm doing ok
i really am
i have teary moments
and moments of frustration
but shame, guilt, anguish, and heartache
those have stayed away
and that's because so many of you are praying
please continue those prayers
i should find out the information tomorrow that will set me spinning off in one direction or another
and after i've processed
i'll share here.
i love you all
and i'm sorry i've been absent on your blogs
that will change
...processing...
Time again for confession of all that I have and have not done over the past few days/hours.
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It has not been unpredictable weather in TN (as usual), and because of that I did not play it safe on Friday and Saturday by staying inside just in case it started raining while I was running the greenway. It did not stay sunny and gorgeous in spite of my couch potato-ness.
Yesterday I did not go to a friends house to hang out after babysitting and did not end up playing WiiFit for almost an hour. I am not totally addicted to WiiFit even though I don't even have one. I am not determined to own a WiiFit by the end of the summer.
I did not find out about an exciting consulting opportunity that I may not be totally qualified for and will not have the chance to prove that later THIS WEEK. I am not totally jazzed about the idea, and this would not be a great thing for me to do even when I go back to the classroom. I do not want everyone to keep their fingers crossed for me!
Even though I spent a lot of time at my house (in fear of the non-rain) I did not sit around and do absolutely nothing around my house. My house looks perfect, naturally. I would never use the time I had planned to exercise to simply sit around. Not me!
I did not realize this morning that when I went to the grocery store and Target this week I forgot to pick up food for the cat. Emi does not have just enough to get her through today. I do not need to make an emergency trip to get cat food on my way home today! I do not feel awful about that...poor baby.
I do not have hours of recorded tv that I have yet to watch. So if you do not see me around much this week, assume that I'm not out running frantically trying to watch back episodes of Criminal Minds, Law and Order, Medium, and CSI.
I am not both excited and a little sad that LOST is ending for the season this week. Anthony and I do not have big plans to watch it together!
Admit it. You're as dorky as I am, and you completed the title.
(or you have NO idea what I'm talking about, and you're further convinced that I'm a loon)
Either way, it's time to tell you all the things I've not been doing for the past few days. Before I get too far into it though, you should head to McMama's blog to check on Stellan's progress. Still praying!
SO, what I've not been doing lately.
First of all, as I sit here writing this at 10 am, I am not starving. It's not like I did not eat dinner last night and have coffee this morning. What gives?
I did not become slightly disappointed on Wednesday that there was no new LOST. I am not addicted to enamored with slightly interested in this show. I did not receive a facebook wall post from Anthony the other day which did not include this video. If you're not a LOST fan you should definitely not watch it.
On Thursday night, Anthony and I did not cook vodka pasta for his sister and her boyfriend...and we did not play Uno Attack afterwards. We were not incredibly competitive and cut-throat throughout the whole game. That's not how we roll. Nope.
Friday was not a gorgeous day and I did not take advantage of it as much as possible. Sara and I were not supposed to get together to go for a hike on the greenway until she had unforeseen circumstances. However, I did not strike out on my own for about 3 miles...and I didn't feel great afterwards!
Friday evening I did not host a girls' night in. I did not make some new recipes which I will not be posting here in the coming weeks. We were not stuffed. We did not just sit around and watch the sweet English bulldog that I was babysitting the entire night. We're more exciting than that!
Speaking of the English bulldog, this sweet puppy did not stay at my house from Wednesday to this morning. I did not love it. Not a lot.
isn't she not adorable?!
I have not already blogged about my fantastic weekend, so I suppose I should not skip it here for fear of being long-winded and repetitive :-)
I am not off "work" today, and most certainly am not taking advantage by still being in my pajamas. I would never sit around, catch up on blogs and blogging and watch tv all morning. I did not cry at a movie already today. I'm not a sap.
And as I wrap this up, I'm not considering going to the kitchen for a snack. It most likely won't be the espresso caramel bars I blogged about the other day. Or Cheesecake Factory leftovers. Nope, I'll grab a carrot.
